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[20 May 2005|10:40pm] |
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I swear, I always swear that I'll update these things, but then i get sucked into my space and I never do. I'm going to try my best though. So well, only like 2 more weeks of school left. And i've only have three exams. That's exciting. I just got home from Nate's surprise party. That was fun. I swear I was born in the wrong era. I was meant to be born in the '40s and '50s, I danced to all the old songs. Hehe I'm such a nerd.
Anyway, on a deeper note. I feel like those who are close to me are somewhat drifting away. I feel like no matter how hard I try, they seem to slip from my grasp. It's really depressing. I'm going to try to focus on making myself happy, and then maybe those people will come back to me. Well that's all for tonight. Later children.
-mj
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| let's look to the stars and pretend we're airplanes |
[04 May 2005|09:47pm] |
*lets show them how to live accept the pain always forgive watch the sun go down learn the sound of
following all that is complete
its breathtaking to think of you and to learn without faith that the sky isn't as blue its mindnumbing to think of
yesterday we'll look toward the stars and dream that we're airplanes
i heard you say its enlightening to think of the breeze
when you watch the sun set, think of me
so here we go*
-This day and age
Leave me one of your most profound thoughts.
-mj
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| You're a star in nobody's eyes but mine |
[02 May 2005|09:04pm] |
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Well, today was a trying day, one of the most trying days in my life. I had two AP tests, English and Human Geography. That's about 7 to 8 hours of testing right there. I had to go straight to work after my tests. Surprisingly though I'm in a very good mood. I can't write tonight though because espanol is calling my name. But leave a thought and tell me how you are.
*One reason we sing is because it reaches a depth that words alone can not*
-mj
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| Let's show em how to live |
[01 May 2005|06:15pm] |
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Well hey, I haven't written in this thing in a long time. I went back and read all my previous entries from January. Wow, so much has changed since then. I literally don't even feel like the same person. Let me just update on formalities:
The Butler Varsity Cheerleading squad won out last two competitions which makes us undefeated. So glad it's over.
I'm vice-president of the western district of student councils in north carolina and kenz is treasurer. The convention is going to be held AT butler this year. That's exciting.
The mono is gone, and has been gone since the middle of January.
AP tests are this week and next week, thank goodness.
That's really all that's news worthy. Anyhow, my granpa just said something really meaningful. Just take a while and ponder this quote.
"Thinking will get you in trouble." In some cases that is so true.
I am so thankful, so lucky, and so blessed because I have someone so very special enter my life. He's the brightest firefly in my jar. Sometimes it is the perception that fate can be cruel. On the contrary it has a bigger plan in store for you, something beautiful is coming into the picture. Something unique, unlike anything else ever to come along. All I know is that I am so happy right now. So happy. Leave a thought so we can catch up.
-mj
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[23 Jan 2005|12:46pm] |
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Well it's cold outside. Really cold, really depressing. Not doing much good for Mallory. I'm trying to be happy, but it's hard. The surealness of friday night still hasn't sunk in yet. Practice will be weird Monday. Three of my best friends, gone. I admire them so much for standing up for themselves and for everyone else on the squad. I wish I had the balls to do that, but deep down, despite ms. warr, i want to keep cheering.
Well enough on that subject. My birthday is in like less then a month. Kinda happy. Although i dont know, it's just weird. I feel kinda lost. Like i'm thinking about everyone going to college and getting out of the hell hole called school, and then i realize. I have one more long year to spend there. It just makes me sad. It also feels like spring break, prom, and summer are soo far away. And it's sooo cold outside. Maybe I have that seasonal disorder thing, you know where women get depressed in the winter, but happy in the summer. Look at that, there I go again with my hypochrondiatic self again. I think I'm going to stop writing in this from now on. I don't think anyone ever reads it, and no one leaves comments, and thats the fun part. Oh well.
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